How am I doing lately?

I just listen to Jango Channel on my phone, and this song was played and remind me about a movie soundtrack. And when I search on youtube, tadaaaaa, it is the soundtrack of Cinderella Story.

I like this song :)

Jimmy Eat World - Hear You Me 

And what am I doing lately is having a break from campus academic activities because it's already a holiday time, but I'm still busy with ITMSS (International Tropical Medicine Summer School) and also being a health team on PIMNAS event at the campus. So it's not a holiday, cause almost everyday I have to go to the campus and it's really busy. 

I'm a bit dissapointed because I have to do remidial for my 12th block (Sensory block) because I didn't pass. Only 4 from 200 more students that pass the exam. The faculty is doing some action to (maybe) improve the students quality. Since almost all of the students are too rely on exam paper of the seniors, and sometimes the questions are not changed, so imagine, we were like having a cheat before the exam. And the faculty knows about it. And now they reform new exam questions, almost all of it are changed. Now, see what they've done? Only 4 people passed. 

Well, for me, it's proven that almost more than 90% students are still rely to the exam paper. While, I usually really want to master the subject from lecture's slide. But since I never had a time to do it and I never did. So sad to have this kind of habit until my second year in medical school. This is not good. 

Sometimes I think I'm too busy with organization, but sometimes when I don't have any thing to do in the organization, I feel bored and eventually I accept almost many of the next programs of the organization. So it feels like I never had a break in the organization. Keep on going, and going and going. 

I am really dissapointed.. Why does it's really hard for me to be focused on my study. While when I've decrease my organization activities, at that time I feel empty. So what should I do? 

I'm tired, but it's okay.. I just need a power so it will be easy for me to get through study + organization.  

I have 2 remidial (7th block and 12th block), while now I earn a scholarship, and my grade is decreasing. It's getting hard, I'm tired, but I'm grown up, I have to be more mature.
Allah make me in this condition, and He will make me go through it. "from spreadsalam.com"

It's hard to start to study. I admit. It's hard. It's not easy.
To be a doctor, with many capability.

that picture represent my expresion now 

*Sorry I'm using English. I'm practicing. :D