Goodbye Grandma, I'll see you Someday

Asskum

It has been really long time that I didn`t post something in this blog. For my last 2 weeks, the first one that I want to share is,

On the date of May 25 2009, my grandma passed out at 02.00 PM. I was still at school, waiting for Ms.Dimar to do Radar Jogja project. And I was painting with Netty, Ratih and Rona. Suddenly, Ms.Dimar called me. I had a feeling that my mom must be text her about something. Cause whenever Ms.Dimar called me and there's her phone on her hand, it must be that my mom has text her and wants to inform me something.

I still laughing with friends and I came to Ms.Dimar and I said "Kenapa mis? Ibuku bilang apa? Hehe". Then I thougt maybe mom wants to inform me about my piano course after school or maybe i'll be picked up late and etc. But then Ms.Dimar's voice is lowed down and she said "Sari, tadi mama telfon, mbah uti udah ga ada.. sekarang kakak lagi di jalan mau jemput Sari, terus ke rumah mbah. Sekarang siap-siap ya ambil tas.." And then I felt, what??!! I still didn`t believe, I`m in condition of 50:50 then I said "Ah, mis boong. Beneran mis?....." And it`s true, I`ve lost my grandma. At first little tears dropped on my cheeck. Then I realize.. Since she was taken home from hospital, I haven't visited her... The last visited that I had is when she still in the hospital. And I regret that I didn`t made any visit for her, altough on Sunday I had no homework or any assignment to do.

My grandma actually had diabetic since long time ago, and for about 2/3 years ago in the night of new year she fell down from her bed and she had fracture on her tigh bone, and she can't walk smoothly after it.. I remember that, when she still able to walk, and we had a dinner, she always picked up some crackers for us or maybe she really likes to give us more side dish. She really likes when we eat a lot. But after she can't walk properly and she just sit on her wheelchair, I felt that she never do that again, and she seldom asks us to add more food like she usually did long time ago.. I still remember her voice, her slippers, her dress.. I just realize that I'm watching her age reduction.

I almost forgot... I think I'm the last grandchild who heard her last voice in normal condition.. On April 25 in the morning I had an activity at school, which was Pak Amin's birthday and SC was incharged to manage the event. The activity done at 12.00 AM I think, and my sister picked me up and we went to cellular store to repair my phone. My phone reparation would be finished in the evening. Then we went home and I intend to get it after Maghrib with my sister.

It's already Maghrib and I asked my sister to go. But my mother said, no go with daddy. Then I went with him. The place of the store was a bit close to my grandma's house. After I get my phone, my dad ask me to go to grandma's house cause it has been a long time I haven't visited her. Then I agree and we went to grandama's house.

When I arrived, as usual my grandma was sitting on her wheelchair in living room, and my grandpa also. Then I greeted them and sat beside my grandma. As usual she likes to talk in Javanese. And I didn`t really understand Javanese especially the smooth Javanese language. Then I tried to understand, she asked me usual questions that she likes to ask as usual.. And I really regret that I didn't ask her lots of question.. We were on living room, we were watching RCTI SINETRON which is FULL OF EVIL'S ATTITUDE AGAINST ANGEL'S ATTITUDE WHICH IS FULL OF GROWL AND CRY!! AND I HATE IT.

Suddenly, something happen with grandma. I was sit beside her, and my dad also near her. And suddenly my dad said "Bu! Bu! Bu!" and he shook her but she didn`t give any response. And I thougt, what's going on? .. My grandma's face was flat, no expression. I still didn't catch what's wrong with grandma. I thougt she's just fine, and dad was too excessive.

After it, we moved grandma to her bed. My dad shook her again, and still no response. And I realized that's really something wrong happened with her. Then my dad ask me to phone my uncle and ask him to come here. And I also called mom. Maybe because my dad was too panic, he directly called ambulance of some hospital *(actually I know the name of the hospital, but I won't tell it) and gave guide for the address. I was soped grandma with tea, sometimes her mouth could be opened, but sometimes it wasn't.

My uncle said to my dad that to drive grandma with our own car is faster than waiting for the ambulance. But it was too late, that my dad have already called the ambulance. It was a really long time to wait the ambulance. Taking with own car is faster.

Then, FINALLY the ambulance came. The doctor came with her assistant. She examine her, and ask her some questions but it didn`t answered. Few minutes later... She said no problem with her, it's just family problem, psycological problem. Maybe can be fixed by family's athmosphere. And the sinetron could be the trigger of the shock. (Don't watch any kind of growling and sadness SINETRON. I really hate it, it's just there's no moral values on it. Yes it is, but MOSTLY it's to excessive and there's no point that I can get from the story) Then I thougt, okay, maybe yes it is.. Until late night I still stayed on grandma's house altough tomorrow is school day and actually I had internship.

On Monday, grandma was brought to the hospital to be examine. And what's the RESULT? : SHE GOT STROKE! Oh My God, what the hell is happen to the doctor yesterday?!.. Did she sleepy or what.. Ah.. forget it.. Actually, if someone got stroke attack, there's has to be some action to prevent it.

It has been 1 month that grandma stayed on the hospital.. She can't speak no more. So I said that, I think I'm the last grandchild who had a conversation with her. I visited grandma not frequently but not rarely too.. Cause it has been 1 month and the cost was blown up, then family decided to take her home. My dad borrowed hospital bed from his friend, and bought gas tube for her, and hire nurse. I haven't visited her since she stayed at home.. And then I heard that she passed out at home. My sister said that if someone got stroke on his left brain, they won't stand any longer.

I cried along the way to grandma's house. After I arrived, it has already many family members there.. I went to her room, and found my mom and aunt. I was cried again, and then I kissed her cheeks before she'll be bathed.. Cause when she has had bathed, no one could kiss her again, cause it's prohibited in Islam. I followed every step of jinayah handling. And when I came to school on Wednesday, I had UI (universalism islam) test, and it's about jinayah handling and I remember all of those steps cause I've did it on the previous day.

Goodbye Mbah Uti.. I hope you have been hold by Allah now. I know Allah really loves you. Allah has given you many suffering and I hope all of your suffer could erase all of your mistakes if you had.. We will meet someday.. Forgive me if I ever hurt you.. I'm sorry.. I'll try to learn Javanese Mbah.. Hihi :D

Wassalam..