Rain

Why when it rains, dark, wet and condense I always feel sad and disappointed?

At some point I can accept this condition, but in the other, I can't.

How did you feel when you are really pissed of but nothing can't help you?

Maybe something could help me, but I haven't find it.

I always feel this way in this kind of situation.

I am disappointed with one, but I can't blame him because of this.

I think this condition won't better, I always found stalemate when I try to solve this.

Maybe this is the only or my destiny. But I feel too awkward facing this condition.

Some of them said, Why? You can ask for more

But no, I can't ask them for more. I had too much asked them for everything that I need to full filled. All I want to state is

this is Stalemate and this is the thing that I have to face.

If one day this stalemate had big impact on me, whether it's good or bad, I have stated that this is stalemate. I can't change it.

Sometimes I just want to say :

How dare you do this to me??!

I often keep silence, but sometimes I throw it off too.

But..

I'm sad and tired. I just like want to bump but there's always catalyst.

I can't blame anyone and that's why I feel this way.

Cause I have to face it alone, because it's my problem.

I want to say again,

How dare you

but it's not an appropriate words for you. Never appropriate cause maybe you don't meant to.

Sometimes I try to explain to my self, that the other also just same like me. But..

It's not..

Why are you making me suffer.

Well, it's not a suffer but, sometimes I felt that way.

You are so damn mean to me.

And I am so damn mean to you guys.

I just want to say I'm sorry, for taking your supply too much.

If I could, I'll try to lighten it.